So I am apparently bad at remembering to do these day of, but I figure at least they are getting done.
Day 7: List 10 Songs You are Loving Right Now
- Ed Sheeran Shape of You – Current fav song
- Nelly Furtado featuring Timbaland – Promiscuous – throwback to undergrad days
- B’52s – Love Shack – fav song growing up, even karoake’ed this song in undergrad once
- Usher Yeah! – another throwback to undergrad
- MC Solaar Bling Bling – no idea what he is saying, just love the song and it always cheers me up when I listen to it
- The Raveonettes – Love in a Trash Can – fav song ever of theirs, on my happy mix for a reason
- The Chainsmokers and Coldplay – Something Just Like This – just discovered this one
- Ariana Grande – Focus
- Flo Rida – My House – this one both me and my 5 yr old love for different reasons
- DNCE – Cake By the Ocean – crank this one every time it comes on the radio
- Aerosmith – Cryin’ – throwback to my youth, loved that song then and now – has kind of become one of my theme songs lately
Day 8: Share Something You Struggle With
Self-Confidence/Self-Love: Truthfully I have struggled with this forever. I had it the first two years of high school, then I moved the middle of high school to a completely different school in a different state and I went from being somewhat cool to the new awkward kid who according to a friend that I got to know better in college “the obsessive loner”. I’ve always been self-conscious about my body ever since I got snubbed because of it in middle school by the person I thought was my best friend (who I was also in love with), and it has been a very love-hate relationship based on the atmosphere around me. And yes, I know I need to love myself before anything but it has taken me a long time to learn that. It got better in undergraduate and very good the first year of graduate school when I finally came into my own. It kind of took a nose dive the first time I got dumped by my ass**** of an ex-boyfriend who I later learned was pretty much using me in undergrad. So I decided to have as much fun as possible when I was in Scotland in grad school, when I got my first sassy short haircut. There were a lot of gorgeous smart guys that year and I had a good time getting to know them, even if not all of us saw eye to eye as well as I would’ve liked.
When I first met John, I felt on top of the world and on top of my game. Even more so when we got married, had Liam, and for awhile things were amazing. Then I started to lose sight of myself. It wasn’t him and me separately anymore, but us as a couple, and I really lost sight of myself. I am just starting to gain myself back and practice some self-discovery to see who I really am and what I want. I realized in the beginning of the last eight months that I need a lot of work and I’m working through it one day at a time. It’s funny because I know friends and acquaintances have said “What are you talking about? You are so full of confidence I’m jealous sometimes,” and all I can say is that “Yes, I can be an exuberant person, but that doesn’t always equal self-confidence.” I’ve always described myself as an extroverted introvert, meaning I have moments of both depending on mood and what else is going on in my life.
Day 9: Post some words of wisdom that speak to me
I adore quotes and have been collecting them since I was little. I found this one recently and it really applies to my life right now:
This one from Anglican Archbishop Desmond Tutu says it all about God and his views (sorry folks, I believe in a benevolent God not a vengeful one):
Had to include one from Neil Gaiman, my favorite author. He always has some brilliant quotes as well, including this one:
And what librarian would I be without a book quote, lol. I love this one from Lyndon B. Johnson that I found recently that I’ve added as my tag line on my personal email: